2004-03-01: Travelling

 (from the same notebook as "remembering")

I seem to spend

a lot of time

travelling

here and there

always with destinations

but never quite arriving

2004-04-18: Remembering

I just found this in a notebook, across two pages, I'm in two minds whether the pages are connected or not, or whether this is two pieces on a similar theme, both of which need more work 🤔 

part/page 1:

Is it really better 

to have loved & lost 

rather than not knowing 

what I miss ?

To remember his touch,

his voice, his kiss,

How he said my name.

Would ignorance of that be bliss ?

To know each day

that I can not recover

the smallest part 

of what we had together

Is that really better

than never having felt that way ?

part/page 2:

Sometimes I wish

I could take you from my heart

and purge myself of you,

from each and every part.

To take each thought

and rip it from my mind,

erase you, move on,

and never look behind.

But you're a part of me

wherever you may be,

every fibre of me remembers you,

I shut my eyes and you are there.

2016-01-01: Dare to dream v2

For a while
I dared to dream
That you were what
You seemed to be

But I knew
It would always end
With me the fool
And you the Joker

2016-11-23: Run

I know why you run
You're running from what you've become
A liar and a cheat
And, what's more, a thief

You stole my heart
You took my life
Turned it upside down
And then ran

I know what you're running from
From all those things you've done
And want to forget
No time for regret

I know why you run
You run from reality
But you can never run
Far or fast enough

Always moving on
Never looking back
You'll never find what you need
If you never stop

[Notes: this one was actually mostly there for some but just got some last tweaks in November.]

2016-01-20: Second Chances

I'm not averse 

To second chances

Breathing new life 

Into old romances 

But not at the cost

Of repeating mistakes

That open old wounds

and make my heart ache

2016-04-21: One and only

You said I was

Your One and Only

Always and forever

Growing old together.

You said I was

The one you wanted

Cared for, cherished, 

Chose to be with.

You said you would be

Open, honest,

And be there

When I needed you.

You said we should

Put the past behind us

Build a life, a future.

I believed you.

If that's all true

I have to wonder

Why you're not here,

Not now, not ever.

2016-01-01: Dare to dream

For a while I dared to dream

But the dream you made for me

You also broke.

And I awoke inside

A shattered mirror

Reflecting only my lost hope.